Status As Of Now

Dear Readers, 

Sorry my last post was depressing. Things haven't exactly been better physically or mentally since then.

I made another new one last night. Not sure if or when I'll upload it if I ever do.

I haven't done anything with the archives yet. I'm doing some data shuffling and it takes awhile due to device battery limits.

I'm just getting my strength back from a physical illness episode. My anxiety and depression have been flaring up as well. Next week is appointments every other day.

I am not back. 

Right now I get into the mood for TG fiction sparingly. It just happens and when it goes it goes. Might be once a week or once a month.

There's times when I feel like being someone else would be better. That I'm so unwanted or unbecoming that being someone else would make me desirable or worthy of humanity again.

I don't want to be around other humans. Especially women.

I'm not saying all this to get pity. Just explaining so that readers can understand.

I couldn't stop pic hunting. The ideas still happen. It's a slower pace now than before. Depression and anhedonia makes it harder for me to be productive.

Some things have come back but others fade away. 

The requests were just too much too soon. It overwhelmed me when it probably shouldn't have. It just felt like pressure.


If I do officially come back it will be announced.

Until then I'm just taking it by ear. 

Sincerely,
Gensabi

No Requests

Dear Readers,

I am NOT officially back.

I am NOT taking requests.

The ones I recently uploaded I had made in December while recovering from a suicidal and paranoid episode.

I made one new one the other day.

I was content not uploading the ones from December for three months. It was almost going to be never.

In the last four days I've had some anger issues in public. Medical issues made me miss my last therapist appointment.

I was at risk of a stroke due to high blood pressure. I'm still focusing on my health and have had to change my diet to cut out sodium.

I'm taking things slowly. 

I'm not even sure if I'll make more at all. 

Honestly, being retired I think helped with stress but capping helps too.

I couldn't even finish the one series I did last year around this time.

I finally changed the featured post too.

I'm not well. Physically or mentally. 

I only uploaded the last few because why not? They were made. Might as well.

I appreciate the comments on them, but not the requests. 

Sincerely,
Gensabi

Unexpected Choice!

Sexy When Wet!

No Tumble, No Fumble!

The Chimera Cloth!

Best Morning Ever!

Aches And Joys

Update

Dear Readers,

It's been awhile.

Old habits die hard. In other words, old habits are Bruce Willis on Christmas Day. 

I have indeed made some more capped pics. Not uploading them yet if I even do.

I've been dealing with health issues all along. Right now I'm at risk of stroke due to high blood pressure.

Not good.

It's been busy too. Heck, maybe too busy and that's why I'm in this bloody pressure point now.

This year hasn't been as stressful as last, but the effects are catching up to me physically. 

Right now I'm still around. Waiting until March to see what happens.

Sincerely,
Gensabi

Done

Dear Readers, 

I'm done. No comebacks this time.

I had a scare tonight. A scare that is taking me offline if I can manage it. 

This was a Big Brother type scare. I tried to get help with emotional things and my paranoia got validated big time.

I'm going to try and go no internet for awhile. None. Nada. Zip. Zilch.

I'm not sure if it's going to work, but I don't like what happened tonight one bit. 

I'm not going to be back on here. 

I made a huge mistake. 

Sincerely,
Gensabi