Dear Readers,
I have had a full mental collapse.
I have sought mental help.
I was suicidal most of the weekend and yesterday was excruciatingly painful to survive.
Due to what happened...I think Gensabi is done. Putting text to pictures of strangers can have consequences if that person comes across it.
At the moment I cannot bring myself to cap anything.
This isn't even a breakdown over the politics of my country which would be enough to snap my resolve.
Maybe with time...I don't know.
I am afraid of leaving my house now. I fear going out in public. I have got to fix this.
I'm sorry. I am pursuing mental help and hopefully it will help.
Sincerely,
Gensabi
Im sorry to hear that, but you take care of your self and if you do come back your loyal fans will be here for you. I know your captions always help me in my times of need. and I thank you with all of my heart for them. im sure I speak for every one when I say we love your work and wish you well
ReplyDeleteThanks.
DeleteIf there posting pics on the net, there for the world to see! Otherwise what has you down? You have a community full of people all willing to help in any way they can
ReplyDeleteHow would you feel if someone capped a pic of you that portrayed you in a negative light? Over and over again and it spread across the internet like wildfire? It's why I don't use pics of anyone I know, but we are all strangers to someone. Right now you enjoy anonymity but what if a picture someone else took of you was used? And people began to recognize you in public from that? What if they thought you were ugly? What if hundreds of women rejected you from a picture someone used of you? What if you had no control over it? What if it caused all your worst fears of rejection to come crashing down on you to where you just want to die and never be seen in public ever again?
DeleteIt would be my fault for posting it, so I'd have no one to blame but myself.
DeleteBesides the fact when it comes to women there are always guys willing to try and get into their pants no matter what size or shape they are in and I don't mean to get into their pants just for sex, I mean relationship, etc. Honestly I think it's harder being a guy then it is a woman, because when the confidence and assertiveness goes that's sort of what makes a man and failed relationships make a person feel less like a man, like they are not good enough.
However there is always hope and always things a person can do. Like if people think I'm ugly all I can do is put myself in the best position possible to succeed. I could join a gym or even just stay at home exercise and maybe try to eat healthier, I could find a hobby that interests me to share along with others were people see the inside of me not just the outside. I could go back to school or just take a class to better my career or a community class to engage in a hobby I always wanted to do. There is a whole life out there to live, experience and do, just have to break away from the mindset because how a person sees things is not how it actually is.
Im sorry to hear that friend, take all the time you need. First i want to thank you for all the caps you have done, requests, etc... you are a great capper. If you do come back, i will be waiting for your triumphant return, as a friend, and loyal fan. If on the other hand, this is the end of Gensabi, then it was fun and entertaining reading your caps. I hope you get the help and support you need my friend, and hope sincerely that this is not the end of gensabi, you can beat this. My prayers, and well wishes, go out to you my friend.
ReplyDeleteThanks. I just don't know.
DeleteI am very sorry, please take care of yourself.
ReplyDeleteNow, the most important thing is to maintain balance, rest and recover.
Everything else can wait.
Receive my thanks and appreciation for sharing your creativity and sensitivity.
Please take good care of yourself.
Thank you. I am just trying to make it until the doctor appointment.
DeleteGod bless you Hun I hope you get better.
ReplyDeleteThanks.
DeleteSorry to hear you've been having a hard time. Please take it easy Gensabi, much love to you. Thanks for your amazing caps. I'll miss them ^~^
ReplyDeleteThanks. They are on here though.
Deletewhy not use images of porn stars? They are more understanding when it comes to these kind of things.
ReplyDeleteI do.
DeleteBest of luck & thank yu for all your work over the years!
ReplyDeleteThanks. Sorry I never got to finish Fear. At least not yet.
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